A New Year?

This new year
Feels like last year.
Some good things- Some bad.

Here's one of the good things... This is a message I got from my darling friend that I hadn't spoken to in a while yet she always knows just how to make me feel amazing:

The only fucking boy that ever loved me back was M.
the only boy that i actually ever loved was M.
i have kissed boys.
and i have messed with boys.
and i have given everything i had to them.
and now, after being stupid and thinking things change.
im back to where i started.
i have started over a million times and accepted a million appoligizes.but never once have i been credited.
I use to be the chick that guys loved to hang out with.and was the girl that had everyone over to party and swim.
and now im the college girl.and until this week i was pissed that it had all gone up in flames.
I dumped P for T.
T dumped me for S.
C dumped me cause of alcohal.
I dumped J cause of M.
M dumped me cause of her.
and during all of this I met some great guys.
and they met me.but nothing lasts forever.
and W and me are over cause i care to much.
and he is just *waiting for something better*and know what amanda...
sometimes i actually am heartbroken beyond belief.
but then something amazing happens...I wonder why???
all the memories i can remember are small and erelavent.
I cant remember the first kiss with any of these ppl.cant remember any dates?
or anything.all i can remember is the most recent things that have happened.
and that just proves to me that even though sometimes i feel alone,the things that made me happy, only lasted about a minute or two.
The only things i can remember that actually have impacted my life are the things i have done with my friends.
Those are the things that matter to me.
A kiss is a kiss.
and a boy is just a boy.
but friends like us are forever!

smile little lady.

And then there are bad things... Things you want to change. Things you are afraid of changing. One little move can make a world of difference. One word, two words, 3 words... Make all the difference. There are things that you thought would change, that you hoped would changed. You put all your faith in one person and ... they let you down.
And there's nothing you can do.

So quit your resolution because everyone knows you're not going to keep them anyway. Watch out for your friends, know that you have the power to make them smile.

And watch out for the bad guys...And guys with receeding hairlines :)