"I must be dreaming again"

I have these perceptions in my mind about how things will pan out.
Except things never turn out the way I think they will.
So, either my perceptions are wrong... Or the world.
I vote the world.

I have always had a hard time expressing my feelings to people, that's just who I am. I have a hard time telling people that they have hurt me or have really pissed me off. I can barely cry without laughing, just to ease the seriousness.
So, my personal skills are lacking but... I don't understand how other people can be so oblivious to other people and how they feel. I care a lot about the people that are close to me and to see them upset makes me upset as well. And it hurts me because I can't fix it.

I wish I could that I don't care about anyone. But I can't.

I might not ever tell you how much you pissed me off, I will probably just let it slide. Maybe next time you hurt me, I'll let you know. Maybe not. But for now,

YOU HURT ME.

Puppy

Today, the Parker girls bought a bunny, a very handsome cuddly bunny:)
I am sooo happy, I haven't been this happy in a while.
Pets just haven't been working out for me that past year so I am so excited to have a new one:)
He is brown and small and so so cute!
We set up his cage today and he loves to slide around in it.

And for the first time in a while, I love a boy
A boy bunny!
Haha stinky boys.

Hurray for bunnies! (named puppy!)

<3

"Fuck You Jordan"

So, today I am Jordan. The fucking idiot. The idiot that thought everything could go back to the way things were. WRONG. I thought that I could apologize for being such an idiot and everything would be okay. I would confess my love to you and we would be okay, we would be together again. I was so so wrong. I know that it is different and I can tell that your feelings for me have changed, it's nothing like it was before. But.. you won't say it, just let me go. Don't drag it out because it's just gunna hurt more in the end.

I don't know what to say about your parents either. I have no words for you. I have no comforting phrases to express. I don't know how to help you. I know that I am going to disagree with you in this entire situation.. and I don't want to, I don't want to talk about it. I'm afraid that we are going to fight and drift even further apart, if that's even possible. I just don't want to lose you again. But I think our time has already past.

And it breaks my heart.

Cellulars

Okay- so I totally understand how people cannot live without their cell phones. I understand that. But seriously, can you lay off it for like 2 fucking seconds?
Here I am, just studying my heart away like every other person in this oh so lovely window building...
Ring Ring Ring
Okay- so someone gets a phone call, I can accept that.
They hang up.
Ring Ring Ring
12 times. 12 times that this person's cell phone rang. 12 friggin times. 12?!
Okay, maybe I would be able to tolerate this person if the conversations were actually important
"Oh hey Sam, you're bored? Aaawww"
WHAT THE HELL?! Shut up- there are people trying to study while you are chit chatting (chat chitting?) with your buddy Sam, laughing your stupid head off.
I don't want to hear about your life so,
Shut up.
Omg- it just rang AGAIN! 13.

The First Time

So, I would first like to thank Nelle for inspiring me to create my own blog. I would also like to thank you for posting a blog about how you love convincing me to go out on a Thursday night when I have class 9 am on Fridays. Thank you, really.

Hahahaha.

I used to have a blog and it was basically just me bitching about my life, so I deleted it eventually. But fuck that, I miss all my complaining. Just kidding, hopefully I will bring a little more insight and perhaps intelligence into my renewed blogging experience.

That's all for now.